Living or Fixing


 
I am a fan of a writer named Bill Kenower. His book, Fearless Writing, has been a real find. I’m almost 25,000 words into a novel I didn’t think I’d ever start, because Bill’s book convinced me I should stop treating that part of my soul that wants to be a writer like the enemy, or a fraud, or a sucky loser. I need to befriend myself.

Bill is also a generous writer, in that he posts and appears frequently in social media. Here’s a favorite recent post: Simple Solution

I love this part especially:

“I’ve already tried and tried to fix myself, and nothing’s worked. I want to give up – but then I must choose what to give up: living or fixing. The moment I give up fixing, living gets much simpler.”

To which I commented:

Yessss! Just yesterday it occurred to me how fixated I am on solving problems. I have a desperate need for resolution, so I can get back to same ole’, same ole’, where I am at least temporarily comfortable. This often leads to feelings of ineptitude, powerlessness, failure. Giving up “resolution” or “solution” as the ultimate goal, and opening up to the ebb and flow, the up and down, the adventure; the good, the bad, the ugly, the Mystery, feels like a better way. “Not A mystery, mind you, THE Mystery. The one that can never be solved.” Tom Robbins

Here’s to the Mystery.
 
Happy sunny Sunday morning,
BuFoon Steve Gillard

 

Simon Lynge

 
Sue and I went to a rare Port Townsend appearance by Simon Lynge the other night, part of the Northwind Gallery’s Art Port Townsend. Even though he and Janna Marit Knudson, his wife, and their family live here, Simon takes his music, for months at a time, to far away places like Europe and Greenland, where he grew up. (However, it was fun to hear that he was born in Denmark, as was our founder, Niels!) Oh, how I wish Niels was here to meet Simon and listen to his music. It’s hard to imagine music any closer to Niels heart and vision and, hence, to the heart of BuVu.

Had to share the experience and point you BuFoons who don’t already know about Simon in the direction of his music.

Here’s his website: Simon Lynge Music

And his Youtube channel: Simon Lynge

And this from his most recent album, The Map of Your Life: Hallelujah!

 

 
Happy Sunday,
BuFoon Steve Gillard

 

Jesus and NDEs

    For those readers who consider “serious” discussions of God, Jesus, the Afterlife, etc., as if they are “real”, to be infantile or based in superstition or magical thinking, you’re excused. No hard feelings. Bye. Thanks for dropping in for a sentence or two. Or you can hang around for giggles. Whatever.
    I confess to a bias formed from treating these things as real from the time I could understand English, being reared in a fundamentalist Christian household and, much to my chagrin, being required to attend church at least three times a week.
    I’ve long since parted ways with Christian fundamentalism and a literal interpretation of the Bible. But, I retain a paramount interest in the life and teachings of Jesus, and I maintain an ongoing belief that we transcend our bodies and have an “afterlife,” although talking about consciousness transcending bodies in terms of “before and after” is a mite ridiculous, since time and space are limited concepts to begin with and probably don’t apply to consciousness.
    I am an avid reader of Near Death Experience accounts. (NDEs). Furthermore, I am accustomed to the standard of proof we lawyers call “by a preponderance of the evidence.” I.e. for cases where that standard is applicable (most non-criminal cases), judges and juries award millions of dollars to plaintiffs, cause property to be transferred from one person to another, evict renters, put people in involuntary commitment to institutions, etc., etc., so long as evidence of the right to make such decisions is “more likely than not to be true.”
    What makes it “more likely than not to be true?” If you put the reasons for believing something is true in one column, and the reasons for not believing it in another column, if the “Believe” column has 51 entries and the “Don’t Believe” column has 49 entries, then the “fact” or evidence being offered is deemed proven to be True.
    If you’re interested, one good book about this is God and the Afterlife: The Groundbreaking New Evidence for God and Near-Death Experience by Jeffrey Long.
    On that basis I am prepared to believe many NDEs are True. This belief helped me (re)form my conviction that Jesus is worthy of my attention and my efforts to understand him and his teachings, after about 20 years of intellectual rebellion, from roughly age 40 to 60. I’ve changed my thinking because so many NDEs include the experiencer meeting up with Jesus in the visitors area of the Afterlife.
    That was all a long explanation to get to this: I’m just starting into what appears to be the first effort by anyone to write a book devoted exclusively to NDEs and Jesus. The name of the book is, guess what, Jesus and the Near Death Experience. It’s by Roy L. Hill, a clinical psychologist.

 

    In the introductory chapter(s) of his book, Mr. Hill points out that one of the revered mystics in the Catholic tradition, and the first woman author to be published in English (I didn’t fact check that), Julian of Norwich, wrote extensively and eloquently about her own NDE. Here’s the part that I love the best, so far, gleaned from Julian’s writing:

 

 
    That’s it. That’s my answer if anyone, (including my worried mother), wants to know what I believe, whether I’m still a “Christian”, in spite of the fact that I don’t attend church or read the Bible much. Theologically I’m a Universalist: Everybody makes it into the “heavenly” parts of the Afterlife if they want to be there. Whether they ever heard of Jesus or not, whether they considered themself an Atheist, whether they have a rap sheet that requires a gigabyte thumb drive to store, or … what the hell ever. Everybody makes it in. It’s impossible not to make it in. We’re all one with Jesus. If he’s there, we’re there. Badabing, badaboom. End of story.

 
Cheers,
BuFoon Steve Gillard

 

Your Playful Heart

A Facebook friend posted a wonderful Jim Carrey video, “I Need Color“, with him showing and telling about his love of painting. This caused me to remember his luminous 2014 Commencement Address but, first, a reminder of why we love Jim Carrey:

 

 
So, here he is explaining why this 2014 graduating class is “ready and able to do beautiful things …” when they choose Love and not Fear. “Don’t ever let Fear turn you against your playful heart.” Play on, Jim.

 

 
Cheers,
BuFoon Steve Gillard

 

Soulfulness

Niels was always keen to talk about soulfulness.

Rest his soul, here’s another departed one’s take on it:

 

 
“… if you want to hear what it feels like to run out of road, listen closely to My Only True Friend, from the album (Gregg) Allman worked on in the years before his death, this May, after a battle with liver cancer. The album, Southern Blood, recorded with Allman’s touring band and guests, was produced by Don Was and will be released Sept. 8. Allman’s longtime guitarist and music director Scott Sharrard co-write this song.

“Over a stately, thick-with-humidity groove that recalls Laid Back, Allman sings like he’s confiding to a friend, distilling hours of stock-taking and introspection. He’s plainspoken, like always, and his casual air adds disarming resonance to what is clearly a farewell statement. He senses time is running out. He frames the act of roaming in romantic terms. Several times, he sings, ‘I hope you’re haunted by the music of my soul, when I’m gone’ — and to be honest, it’s hard not to be haunted. Because here’s blues incarnate, singing in that weary, wise, rye-whiskey rasp he perfected as a young man, explaining his devotion to the mythic transient place where he felt most alive. Where things made sense.” NPR

Listen to My Only True Friend HERE.

 

 
Cheers,
BuFoon Steve Gillard